For greater than 20 years, Rosa has labored as a nanny in New York Metropolis, serving to increase youngsters who nonetheless go to her when house from faculty. Now, regardless of continued demand for her childcare providers, she’s planning to depart the nation. Like her accomplice of 16 years, a development employee, she is going to self-deport—he to Colombia and he or she to Guatemala. “Then he can come go to me,” she mentioned.1
“Not less than we won’t have that feeling that somebody is chasing us,
coming after us. As a result of that’s how we really feel, each of us,” she mentioned.
“Day by day on Spanish TV the adverts say, ‘For those who’re unlawful, we’re going to
get you. We’re going to kick you out.’ That’s the message we hear each
day. Day by day. It impacts you.”
“It’s like just a little drop of water hitting on a stone. Ultimately
it begins making a gap,” she mentioned. “Individuals don’t know what we’re going
by.”
Earlier than coming to the USA, Rosa was a single mom of two
in Guatemala. She taught at a language college for vacationers and offered
jewellery for a big U.S.-based firm. Then a recession hit, leaving
her with out work and a 2-year-old and a 4-year-old to feed. She accepted
an invite to hitch a childhood boyfriend and U.S. citizen dwelling in
New York, leaving her youngsters behind together with her mom till she might
safe visas for them later. However as soon as in New York, her boyfriend was not
capable of help her and her vacationer visa expired.
“I had nothing, so I started on the lookout for work,” she mentioned. As an
undocumented lady, she adopted a typical path, taking jobs as a nanny
and home cleaner. “It was good cash and I used to be sending a reimbursement to
feed my children,” she mentioned.
She has heard speak of mothers who smuggle their youngsters throughout the
border. “However I wouldn’t try this. It’s too onerous, too harmful,” she
mentioned. “I wished to do it the authorized method, however I couldn’t. I’ve been
speaking to legal professionals since I received right here.”
Her youngsters remained her prime precedence. “I couldn’t return as a result of
we wanted the cash. They wanted the cash to go to high school.” Now grown
and nonetheless in Central America, her son is an engineer and her daughter is
graduating with a regulation diploma. They have been capable of bypass the intense
overcrowding in public colleges and the weapons and violence that embroils
so many youngsters.
“You haven’t any concept what number of nights I cried as a result of I miss them,
as a result of I wish to maintain them,” she mentioned.
However Rosa was there for her American “children,” together with a dozen
youngsters, throughout 4 households, whom she cared for over a few years. It
was another excuse she stayed within the nation so lengthy: she felt an
obligation to her American households, households that wanted two incomes
and relied on immigrant caregivers like her for accessible and
inexpensive childcare. Lots of the youngsters turned hooked up to her, and
she to them. She appreciated—continues to love—the work.
“I’ve to be trustworthy: I really like youngsters,” she mentioned. “They’re so
curious, so inventive. They’re actually trustworthy with you, with their
emotions, with their info. They usually be taught from you.”
Rosa at all times paid earnings taxes, utilizing an Particular person Taxpayer Identification Quantity, or ITIN, contributing to applications like Social Safety and Medicare that she is going to by no means profit from, even when she have been to remain in the USA. She doesn’t drink, doesn’t use medication, and has by no means been arrested. “I’ve by no means been in any hassle,” she mentioned.
In September, Rosa was nonetheless going to work, fulfilling her dedication
to a household. However she mentioned she couldn’t endure the stress and worry a lot
longer. She tried to keep away from rush hour and altered the route she took to
and from work. She known as a taxi driver good friend for ICE alerts. Typically
he’d give her a experience.
“It’s not truthful that individuals who come and work are threatened, scared,
humiliated. I would really like the liberty to do my work with happiness as
standard, with out the concern of who’s going to take me away, who’s going
to harm me and deal with me like an animal,” she mentioned.
“I’m unhappy to go house, however we’ve got to have freedom, not reside in a cage.”
Again to Report: Immigrant Employees and the Childcare Disaster
- “Rosa,” interview with creator, September 20, 2025. A pseudonym was used to guard the topic’s id. ↩︎
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